Lifetime Smitten
Mischief, a fangirl story
My eye on guys, a history
I've been around for a while.
The Beatles were a fav group when I was a kid old enough to swoon...
Once you get here, the body externals are showing some wear and tear. But the internal "I" is responding from every age it's been.
I have a life theory that we get to be any of the ages we've already gone through. (The mystery is always the years ahead.)
It means we get to choose the age we are, in feeling.
In assessing. In experiencing. In response.
Like, be like a child seeing something for the first time. Like a 35 year old, when facing a career challenge.
Like a 23 year old...
So, add choice to instinct...
It feels like instinct, my responses, when I see a guy doing guy stuff.
That covers a lot of action. lol
Something simple, like wardrobe adjustments.
Like a guy
knotting his tie, or loosening it
taking a jacket off, or putting it on
putting a hand in a pocket, or taking it out
smoothing a collar down, or flipping it up
taking his boots off, adjusting a belt
Ok ok
Imagine a guy with tools, a truck, a big office, a microphone. A performace stage...
Shoulder shrugs, swagger walking, breathing...
My instincts kick in.
"I go crazy on your small gesture."
Translation in BTS's War of Hormones :) I like it.
In the music vids I'm watching there's an attention to small gestures... And the fanbase has an extraordinary attention to the small gesture. I'm blown away. And feel a rapport.
(And then there's the big gestures, a few captured in the FMV's below...)
Discussing all this with a friend a while back, I wrote about this vivid memory...
"So when I was 18…
I went with some buddies into the Shuswap forests. We had two pick up trucks. Us girls and the guys.
There to cut a tree down, we watched as the guys, in the parked truck in front of us, piled out, unloaded a chainsaw, grabbed a rope. put on their gloves…
Boys but men, I thought. Freshly of age. Displaying those man traits- the deep voices, the shoulder shrugs, the confident handling of tools, the easy laughs.
Unforgettable moment of male gender appreciation.
Acknowledgement of human beauty man-style.
Imprinted. To my roots. Alerts me, men with that ingrained body language.
Language I love. Love to see, to hear. Touched!
Actually, I was 17. The guys tho were 18."
Alerts me, this exquisite awareness of guy gestures.
Exquisite used on purpose, with this meaning: intense, acute, keen, as pleasure or pain
Hmmm, what can I serve up here. To show what I mean by a "small gesture", like loosening a tie. How about an FMV (full music video, usually a compilation made by a fan). This, with actor Lee Min Ho, in the series, The King: Eternal Monarch, showing guy gestures small to impact. This man can wear a coat. Song Fire by Gavin DeGraw.
Lee Min Ho, king vibe, knows how to take charge.
This doesn't show his charming side. He has one...
(Apr 21 Note. LMH is in Vancouver, right now! Filming a movie, just 2 hours away by racecar. I'm sure I can feel him emanating!)
This song is inspiring! I think I'll use it for my "No pain, no gain" fitness initiative music playlist.
I'll imagine Min Ho rowing.
Could I have that in a gif please?
And in the music world, Taeyang of Big Bang, master of taking off a coat. And lots of gg dance moves. Intuitive moves, tuned in. This is an FMV too, which means all the focus is on this performer, music by...Harry Styles? Kiwi.
I think I'll count the driving scenes as guy gestures.
Guy spinning out. Yaya.
Taeyang, warm...
We'll get to Taeyang shirtless but let's not go into overwhelm here. That goes way beyond small gestures...
Dang, reading that over today makes me want to start a "Shirtless" page here on Mischief.
I do have a Shirtless Youtube playlist and Taeyang's on it.
I don't have a lot of songs on it because I'm not putting "shirtless" in the search bar. Random's good.
But, should I?
My chakras are spinning out...
Who am I loving? So many...
Most pages here on Meme Dreams are compiled from several different sites I've created over the years. All pulled together here, in various stages.
The most recent page is "Mischief", a journal of mood and music as I make my way through a grief journey. Missing loved ones. Especially G.
I love ya.
I wanna get down...
If the wrong video plays, refresh your page.
In psychology, there are two popular conceptions of happiness: hedonic and eudaimonic.
Hedonic happiness is achieved through experiences of pleasure and enjoyment,
while eudaimonic happiness is achieved through experiences of meaning and purpose.
That's a little simplified :) but a useful distinction.
Not pursuing happiness as in waiting, creating it as in now.
Talisman stories...
A greeting card with this quote, found early, followed me through the years. Chosen as a guiding principle. Lifelong...
For me, there is only the traveling on paths that have heart, on any path that may have heart, and the only worthwhile challenge is to traverse it full length - and there I travel, looking breathlessly.
Carols Cstaneda, The Teachings of Don Jaun: A Yaqui Way of Knowledge
Oh ya? You've done that? Well...kind of. In a relaxed kind of traverse. That counts?